Tuesday, May 18, 2010

You Wanna Know What I Think Of You?

Have you ever wanted to tell someone just exactely what you think of them? I find myself in that place a lot lately and it seems like a fight between the side of me that knows that that is not how you treat people and the prideful hurt side. It is interesting when you come before God with bitterness, hurt, and pride and the only thing He answers  you with is "pray for them." I don't think I have many literal enemies in life, but when God says love your enemies sometimes I think He refering to those people you are having trouble loving. Sometimes the question comes up, how DO I love them? My mind reverts to 1 Corinthians 13....love is patient, love is kind, love does not envy, love does not parade itself, is not puffed up, does not behave rudely, does not seek it's own, is not provoked, thinks no evil(4-5). This hits home as I think of how that plays a roll in situations where I am frustrated with someone. I wonder if I have been patient with them. I wonder if I have behaved rudely to them or if I am seeking my own in it all. God is good at changing perspectives. He likes to flip our little worlds and show us that our little perspective is missing a lot. So in my case, when I just wanna tell that person how much they messed up, He reminds me that my wounded pride is not loving them. He reminds me that He loved them enough to die for them so why I can't I show them love. Despite that, I am not always great about this with people. It baffles me how hard headed I can be sometimes. 

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