Am I Worth Fighting For?

I don't know that I've fully understood what it means to fight for something until more recently in my life, in a friendship. The people that know me well will know what friendship I am referring to when I bring this up but I'm not worried about it. This person was a very close friend of mine through the later years of high school, but this school year has seen a battle to hang onto that, at least from my end. I've come to somewhat of a conclusion that it may never end and it may never get better, but will drag along like a downed kite. This kite has tried so hard to get up in the air but the person will only walk and not run. It's seemed like a never ending struggle and still feels that way at times. It is frustrating and disappointing. I'm sorry to say this won't be a happy go lucky post because I believe that life isn't always going to be perfect and fantastic, even if you are doing God's will. There will be blogs about joy and seeing God, but there will be blogs about sadness and loss. Today is the latter blog. I will say that I've learned a lot through this whole mess, and for that I'm grateful. Everything in life has a silver lining and I see some here. I also have felt a new feeling in all this. A feeling of "you're not worth it." I've seen friends walk away before but for some reason this one is different and I've fought it tooth and nail for an entire school year. There was one point where we called it off completely (though reconciled later). That day was terrible. I was so upset. Thankfully God surrounded me with loving people to comfort me and show me His love in tangible ways. Tim said something that struck me at bible study the other night, "When we get angry with someone it is basically saying 'God you aren't good enough for me right now.'" So this post is about acknowledging that through my hurts, You are enough for me, God. It still hurts, but in the end, You are the reason I am where I am. Today I was told I wasn't worth fighting for.....I'm forever thankful You never felt that way.