Of Breaks and Lessons

I have decided that I want to blog more, but every time I come to my blog I just don't know how to put my thoughts into word form. I guess writers block is the term. I figured I would start with a description of my break. The break has been pretty good. The pace has been a million times slower than school which has been good, but quite a change. There have been highs and lows. I've missed friends and especially my students over the break since I barely get to see them without youth group. Tie dye shirts with Jenny was fun, though and I had dye on my face after a splashing incident:) There have been fun talks with people, bad talks with people, disagreements, resolutions, laughter, tears, talking all the time, not talking at all, relatives, strangers...but most importantly, no school. I sent in my Texas Tech application after spending hours stressing over it to make it perfect, only to figure out five minutes after I sent it in that I think I messed up on a part. That was a test of my "letting God handle things" department. This was step one and the easier step in fulfilling a dream: to go to Texas Tech. I don't think I will have a problem getting in and if so then the hard part is getting enough scholarship money to go. That is something I fear as I feel like I have a lot to do there and I want to start now. The thought that keeps coming to my head is, if God really wants me there, He will provide the money. Actually working hard on the scholarships is another thing that's important too. Prayer in that area would be awesome. A huge point God has been showing me over this break has been trust and where I find my comfort. He has slowly been showing me that my trust is in humans, that when anything comes up in life I run to a person. That is something He is forcibly changing be removing people from my life and I am trying to adjust to. It's not been easy but each time I learn something from Him it reminds me that He is involved in my day to day life and I love that. I love that lifelong pursuit of a God I will never understand.