Watching and Waiting and Praying I Don't Look Stupid

There is something healing and beautiful about the snapping of leather over and over again when two people play catch. It is like sound therapy. My ears have needed that therapy and got some today. I have joined an organization and will be the assistant coach for their younger 18 and under team they have. I have not met the coach or any of the girls but will this Sunday when they hold tryouts. I stepped into this position sort of on accident. I asked for information about possibly joining them and instead of info, I got the position and received an email to the entire coaching staff saying I was the new assistant coach. This was quite a shocker and honestly annoyed me. I like to have my control over things and felt like I had it until that happened. I'm still very excited about the opportunity but kind of feel like I'm more vulnerable to having to give up something. If I had gotten the information then I could have said ok these are the things I will have to give up to do it, and then make a decision. This way I don't get to make the decision. I'm in basically no matter what. Obviously it's a trust thing, I just wasn't expecting God to work this way. He is constantly surprising me and showing me that I don't know what is best. I haven't yet figured out why going about it this way is best but I'm ready to see what He has in store. I found out a few days ago that they have the tryout this weekend and then start in May. I feel a little unprepared for this weekend because I'm fairly out of shape and haven't thrown much which is a bummer but I intend to be ready by May. I never want to be that coach that looks like they haven't played in twenty years and can't keep up with the kids, especially since I'm only 20. I'm here, at the moment I've been waiting for since senior year of high school. I've wanted to coach since then and now this is my chance to get my feet wet underneath someone who has a good idea what he is doing. I'm fearful about looking like an idiot who thought they knew enough about the game to coach but really is a loser, I'm fearful about stepping out in my faith in that arena, and I'm fearful about having to give up something I treasure to make this happen. I'm fearful, but I'm stepping forward and going ahead with it because God has asked me to trust Him with this.....so I'm here....just watching and waiting and praying I don't look stupid.