Swept Away By Intimacy

"Time for surrenderSpread out your open handsAnd He will raise you upConfessing all that’s brokenAnd watch the healing comeSpread out your open handsAdmit you’ve held them shutBe swept away by this."

-Flyleaf -Swept Away

Vulnerability...A hard thing to really grasp. Intimacy ties in well with it. This song is a great song lyrically because it talks about being swept away, being all in. I don't know if you've ever jumped off a cliff or tall diving board or platform into water but it's terrifying and you have to just do it and jump. You can't slowly slide into the water from that high up. I feel like a relationship with God is that way. He is pretty much all or nothing. It requires a decision (to jump or not to jump) and an action(stepping back and taking a running jump off the platform). I guess growing up I always saw Christianity and church as being about how God is real and life is to be lived in service to Him and we are to do our best not to sin because He died for me. That's about the extent of it. I didn't realize until way later that it is about so much more than that. Revelation 3:16 says "So then, because you are lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will vomit you out of My mouth." God wants nothing to do with someone who sits the line and goes along with it. He wants all in. I am pondering how vulnerability/intimacy fits in that picture. I mean if He wants me to be all in, then He should be all in me. I know, at least to a degree, what it's like to hand things over to Him that you never thought anyone would ever touch or see and how heart breaking that is. I guess I just wonder what imperfect humans are to do with these kinds of things. It's one thing to have a perfect God love you and see your insides laid out like a map, but what about laying it all out for a person that couldn't possibly love you perfectly. That sounds quite a bit harder. Webster defines vulnerable as open to damage or attack. That is kinda scary when you are talking about your deepest self/desires/hopes/dreams/fears. Marriage would obviously be the ultimate test/picture of that. I wonder if that's why many marriages fail. I can see why that would be so difficult. I think people long for that though; to have someone know them that well. Definitely something to ponder.