Change

You gotta listen to this song while you read today's blog post:) It is a favorite of mine and soothes me. It is William Fitzsimmons Passion Play

"Change is in the air." I don't know that I have ever understood that saying but I do know I can just feel when times are changing and often times it has a weird feeling. I am kind of in a year of change. A lot of people experience this change over one summer when they leave for college that next fall but one could say my summer after senior year has been extended a year. I did get accepted to Texas Tech last week. It is something I've always dreamed about doing but it is now manifesting itself in new ways. I still don't know that I can go, because of lack of money, but it is just that much more achievable now. I told a few people before youth group last week and when I showed up during worship I think I had like 5 or 6 people yelling congratulations over the music. They were so excited and happy for me. It was a little weird because I thought I was the only one with that bit of excitement in me. I enjoyed it though. Getting to the campus was a little surreal because I was actually putting eyes to my dream. The campus is not quite so beautiful in my own opinion and part of me wonders if I will die in the cold winters there:) I liked the campus from what I saw though. Seems like a good place to get an education. Part of me wants to just go headlong into planning to go there, but a huge part of me holds myself back because it knows there is a big chance I won't go. So I go back and forth. I tend to feel like I am in the middle of two sections of my life. It is kind of nice though for some reason. I can get used to college life and all that entails without having to be a million miles from home. Change is definitely in the air. I see it in my friendships, in my work, in my schooling, in my family, and in the rest of life. Change is kind of awkward at times but it is cool because it causes me to trust on more of a daily basis that God is there and give up my fears and worries to him, especially with school stuff. I could drive myself crazy worrying about it, but thankfully I haven't.