Dreaming.....

I've been thinking about those a lot lately. I'm not talking about dreams in your sleep. I'm talking about the aspirations you have whether it be for the day or for the rest of your life. I mentioned in a previous post that I don't really feel safe to dream because I've seen my dreams shot down. I've settled in with just seeing where my life leads. I used to dream of being a pastry chef. I thought that would be so amazing. Making all the cool foods and having a blast. I soon figured out that God wasn't calling me to that at all. I soon learned to play guitar and came to love it. My teacher told me that if I kept up the work that I could be really good. He said that I had a lot of natural ability. I dreamed of being a musician and spending the rest of my life just woshiping God through music. That dream got shot down when I realized how hard that would be to do when you can't sing. Other things came up to that just made that dream unrealistic. One dream I've had for the majority of my high school career so far is to play softball in college, get a degree in physical education and coach and teach high school girls in a public school. I thought God was calling me to that ministry. Ever since playing city ball for softball I'v realized how much God is missing from the high school softball picture. If there are many Christians in that arena then I haven't come across them. I always picturing myself having girls that looked up to me and that I could show how to have a real relationship with God. I felt like God was saying "You need to use that ability I gave you. The ability to coach and your overall athletic ability." This summer I heard God say no to that dream. I saw that window close. Through many circumstances and through some hard decisions I gave up my softball career past highschool. I have found somewhat of a new dream though. I want to be a police officer. I want to shed His light in a corrupt and obviously difficult area of our society. I had dreamed of going to college and getting a degree in criminal justice to improve my police abilites, but that probably isn't going to happen because of several different reasons. So after high school I have no idea what will happen. I can't go to the police academy until I am almost 21 years old. Thats about 2 and a half years for me after graduation. I'm trusting God to see what will happen and how he will use that time to use me or teach me....or both.